I took a drive this morning
In order for me to arrive at work on time, I leave just before the sun rises. Today I left for work just wishing I was back in my bed and that life was easy and simple. It was storming which made me miss that warm comfy bed so much more. I catch myself in the balancing act thinking that I work too hard and need to take time for myself to relax. On the other hand, when I am relaxing, I feel guilty for not being productive and bettering myself in different ways. There are so many moments when I just wish I had a remote so I could hit the pause button and just take a moment to breathe.
Life just doesn’t seem to be slowing down at all; in fact, I feel as though I am moving a million miles an hour. Working overtime every day, trying to keep the blog going, and starting two small businesses to try and make some extra pocket money. I spend my free time creating digital art to try and sell on Etsy and taking pictures of clothes to sell on my online thrift store. To top it all off, I am working on getting a job promotion, get into shape, living an overall healthier lifestyle, and keeping my relationship with my boyfriend happy and healthy.
These things circulate in my head constantly and with the storm and darkness all around, my thoughts were brewing. I couldn’t force myself to think of anything else as I drove in the pouring rain with the dark outline of clouds taking over the early morning sky. That’s when I saw a small sliver of the beginning of a beautiful sunrise peeking through. Those light pink and purple colors on the horizon where just what I needed. I felt a glimmer of hope. Right now things are crazy, chaotic, and most of the time I am absolutely exhausted; but at some point, things will be better. The workload will lighten, the blogging will become easier, and the side businesses will begin bringing in income.
I know that these days will come. I just need to be patient and wait.